Time for revenge

Note: A real life story.

I usually don’t understand why people get the feeling of taking revenge. And all this while I was wondering why does the ‘feel of revenge’  even exist. But then probably I have answered all these questions.  People say, only situations and experience teach you everything. That’s when one would understand things well. This is what has happened to me I guess.

I never used to believe in taking revenge. I used to keep my cool and take life as it comes. My friends tell me that I am a kid coated with sugar all over. But few situations tend to make you act in an undesirable manner. Manner in which no one would expect you to.

This time blood boiled. Imagine a situation. You have a person who is going through a very bad phase in life. You first try and understand that person with lots of pain. Make he/she feel comfortable and then slowly take that person out of hell. Then you get to be the most closest person. Trust me!!! That is the most awesome feeling one could experience. I experienced it for a long time. For everything good that happens, something bad will happen. It’s important how you handle that situation.

I was thrown out in no time. Things changed drastically. And why was I thrown out? Probably because it was time for me to be thrown out. I was just a passerby. I was looked upon as a person who will just steady the ship. Once the ship was steady, I was pushed into the ocean. Worst part, I did not know to swim.

I am quite smart and cannot be fooled easily. But I was proved wrong. I was fooled and was stranded. I was brought down to knees in to time. I was made a complete entertainment package like “tata sky – isko laga dala toh life jingalala”. Indeed that’s what had happened. My life was ruined.

I am not a saint attaining sainthood. I am normal human being looking out for a revenge. When I am good, am really good and when I am bad, I AM REALLY BAD. People who know me well, will know it better. And I don’t say things without thinking. And when I decide to do something, I make sure I do it. I will follow the same principles which were used on me.

I went through hell and people were not bothered. I shed tears and no one was there to wipe them. I was not even having the basic support. I was pushed into hell, for taking out someone from that hell.  Am not a fool to fold my hands and accept everything gracefully. I will act and will create an impact.  No one can take me for granted.

Hope people realize that my thinking is not wrong. My reactions are justified. A deep thought should be given to what I have penned down. Someone should get into my situation and visualize how it feels. Am not wrong this time.

Be like a kid - They are more mature

Many a times I feel that I was better as a kid. Why do I say so? Well, there are various reasons. My friends and parents used to tell me "Kalpit!!! Grow up". I used to wonder what do they mean by that.

People wanted me to think in a more 'mature' way. Tackle every situation and handle more responsibilities. Nothing wrong with that. But somewhere I feel that I have lost that 'kid' in me. There were days when the biggest worry in life was passing those high school exams. Days when friends used to fight, but never took anything to heart. Days when there was jealousy, but it used to subside when someone tells -
'You are the closest person to me'. Days when there was only 'innocent' love. Weren't they my best moments in life? Still trying to find an answer.

I want to share what my friend Valentino (name changed) shared with me.

He said - "I tried to be what I was and that was what people loved in me. I was loved because i was possessive, I was caring, I was crazy for 'someone', I went an extra mile to do things for that 'someone'. I was there when 'someone' wanted me. I took that 'someone' out of hell and showed that life is beautiful. But end of the day, I did not get what I deserved."

Well, I tried asking him who that 'someone' was. He was in tears and left the place. I met him again few days later and asked him - "what is wrong?" He narrated everything and trust me even I was in tears. He was a very simple person who 'really' did not get what he 'deserved'. It was like a bulldozer running into his peaceful home which he had built with 'patience' and 'honesty'. A relation which he had built with patience and honesty was destroyed in no time. And now he is trying to bulid that home again block by block. He had taken few incorrect steps, but 'ya allah', none were successful. I know it's going to be very difficult for him to keep moving in life. I see him ruining his life everyday.

It is always important to learn that life can change in no time. After a point, people don't like you for what they used to like you for (not everyone one is that way). Isn't it strange? But that's how things are. You have to live with it.

I remember when I was a kid, when my close ones used to hurt me, I never used to take it too seriously. I used to be all fine in no time. And to be more general all kids are that way. As we grow and when we so called attain 'maturity', we tend to get hurt for many things and we tend not to forget things.

It brings me to a question which I have been debating with my own self for a long time. Weren't we more matured when we were kids? Atleast I was. I want to think like I uesd to when I was a kid (I am young still).

Don't worry Valentino!!! You will just get stronger and stronger. Rememeber this -'Always go after a person who is behind you and not after a person whom you are behind.'