Many a times I feel that I was better as a kid. Why do I say so? Well, there are various reasons. My friends and parents used to tell me "Kalpit!!! Grow up". I used to wonder what do they mean by that.
People wanted me to think in a more 'mature' way. Tackle every situation and handle more responsibilities. Nothing wrong with that. But somewhere I feel that I have lost that 'kid' in me. There were days when the biggest worry in life was passing those high school exams. Days when friends used to fight, but never took anything to heart. Days when there was jealousy, but it used to subside when someone tells -
'You are the closest person to me'. Days when there was only 'innocent' love. Weren't they my best moments in life? Still trying to find an answer.
I want to share what my friend Valentino (name changed) shared with me.
He said - "I tried to be what I was and that was what people loved in me. I was loved because i was possessive, I was caring, I was crazy for 'someone', I went an extra mile to do things for that 'someone'. I was there when 'someone' wanted me. I took that 'someone' out of hell and showed that life is beautiful. But end of the day, I did not get what I deserved."
Well, I tried asking him who that 'someone' was. He was in tears and left the place. I met him again few days later and asked him - "what is wrong?" He narrated everything and trust me even I was in tears. He was a very simple person who 'really' did not get what he 'deserved'. It was like a bulldozer running into his peaceful home which he had built with 'patience' and 'honesty'. A relation which he had built with patience and honesty was destroyed in no time. And now he is trying to bulid that home again block by block. He had taken few incorrect steps, but 'ya allah', none were successful. I know it's going to be very difficult for him to keep moving in life. I see him ruining his life everyday.
It is always important to learn that life can change in no time. After a point, people don't like you for what they used to like you for (not everyone one is that way). Isn't it strange? But that's how things are. You have to live with it.
I remember when I was a kid, when my close ones used to hurt me, I never used to take it too seriously. I used to be all fine in no time. And to be more general all kids are that way. As we grow and when we so called attain 'maturity', we tend to get hurt for many things and we tend not to forget things.
It brings me to a question which I have been debating with my own self for a long time. Weren't we more matured when we were kids? Atleast I was. I want to think like I uesd to when I was a kid (I am young still).
Don't worry Valentino!!! You will just get stronger and stronger. Rememeber this -'Always go after a person who is behind you and not after a person whom you are behind.'
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Having known kalpit for a lil more than a year now, I'd say he is a genuine guy . If your friends with him i guess you would agree with me on this. His blogs are a perfect reflection of his personality. I never knew until recently that he writes blogs. Having read them all I felt it made me understand him better cuz I got to know his point of view on topics which ideally was never a topic of discussion during our day to day conversation. It was a delight to read them all.
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